same story different day.

New Years Eve ended up being a disaster. I ate some chocolate, and got all sorts of fucked up. I'm not sure exactly what was in it but it wasn't what was supposed to be in it. It was like bad E or something except it wasn't, it was just wierd. Drugs are bad. At least I was with good friends and was still able to keep my head up and play along like I was okay. Seriously though at one point I really wanted someone to call me an ambulance. Puking in the gutter is never a classy move, especially when all I had was one little glass of red wine with dinner.

Fast forward a few days later, my stomache has still been feeling not so good but nothing I can't handle. My left shoulder has been bothering me for months now, like at least 6 months and today I really got it all worked up. I need to go to the doctors to get it checked out and find out what the hell is wrong with me. I also need to go to the Dentist and have them bitch at me for not getting my wisdom teeth out and for not getting a cavity refilled A.S.A.P when the filling fell out eons ago. I'm just going to have to put it in plain english for them. I don't have dental insurance and I'm a broke ass bitch that spends what little extra cash I have on either a) bills or b) good times and the dentist doesn't really fall into either of those categories now do they?

Speaking of bills my rent is due. Like it's been due, but I have until tomorrow or so to give the landlord a check. I'm about $160 short. I can find the money somewhere, I'm good at pulling cash that I don't have out of my ass but this time I'm cutting it really close. I've got two jobs now, you'd think this wouldn't be an issue, but it is, ever since that stupid boot on my car... I've been playing catch up. It threw my whole budget into a tail spin. And to make matters worse I haven't been studying at all. I need to get on that shit. I think I'll read a chapter tonight before bed even. Everything in my life is just so fucked up right now. Maybe I'm hoping I'm at rock bottom, you know rock bottom for me. I'm never going to be a junkie homeless gun-slinging crack whore so this very well could be my rock bottom. Now, all I have to do is pull myself out of it, make a few changes you know? I'm already going to lose at least 5lbs. this week because I have no food and no money which equals no calories. See not everything is bad.