And now she's wearing my parfum! I'm going to kill her.

I had trouble sleeping last night. I was so tired and didn't end up shutting my eyes until after three-thirty in the morning. Knowing I had to wake up and clean up all the birthday mess we made last night. Plates everywhere, floors to sweep up, dishes to do. I really wanted to do it last night but getting locked out just put the damper on my spirit. I can't believe I forgot my keys. I never do that. I was so angry at myself.

I finally fell asleep though, and I had some crazy dreams. Like one, I was in the bathtub with this guy that I guess most girls would find hot, dark hair, tan skin, but I was making out with him and thinking in my head 'this is so gross', and things like, 'why am in in this bathtub naked with you, you arent my type. Quit pushing against me! ew'. I don't necessarily like tan/latin guys mmkay. I like white boys. Even in my dreams. So I was dreaming but my mind was still conflicting with the dream and it was really weird. It didn't start, it didn't end, it just was. The bathtub, me and this nasty guy. I woke up because I thought I heard knocking so I flew out of bed and rushed to the door. I'm stupid sometimes. We have a security gate, they'd have to get buzzed in first. I came back to my bed and crawled under the covers. Starting dreaming again about something I no longer remember. It wasn't so horrifying apparently.

Yeah, I didn't think I'd get so upset. One of the house guests that is here this week, Isabella asked if she could use some of my parfum. I shrugged and said yes, but after she put it on. I wish I would have said no. It's my scent. Sometimes I recognize it on people on the street and it makes me smile. But someone I know wanting to smell like me is wierd. Wrong. I've been wearing it so long, it's like part of me. Plus, I don't think that every girl can wear it and pull it off. I don't know why I'm getting so upset about it, I just feel weirded out by it.

I was supposed to take the train to my parents house today, but I think I'm getting a ride, so I'll just take the train home tomorrow.