Today has been manic.

I woke up early and rushed around thinking I was going to be late for work today, but I was right on time. It was just me and the boss lady today. She had me run to her car get her ID and her bank card, get her some breakfast with it, including cookies and then I just sat around at work making worksheets for some financial planning seminar they are having next week. She told me today that I was going to need to learn a lot of new software if I want to be full time there. I don't know what I want though, not right now. I just want to get away from everything for a little while, and then in a few years I'll return and love it again.

Later in the day I had to run around delivering packages to people that are clients that work on our street, drop mail off and make deposits at the bank. I'm nothing but a errand girl these days, but honestly I couldn't complain today because it was the first really nice day we've had in forever. I think the temperature was in the low 80°'s. I made the mistake of wearing my slightly too big jeans, but now that I haven't been eating are way too big and I looked like I was totally emanciated. Okay so I can fit into a size 6 now, and I was an 8/9/10 just two weeks ago. But I don't look too thin, or gross or whatever. I just am built naturally slim, so if I lose 5-10lbs. I get really skinny. Anyway! I enjoyed the sun shining on my face and the view of downtown sprawled out against a bright blue sky.

I didn' t have time to even check my emails! I'm usually such an internet whore, it's quite sad really but hey, I'm addicted. I need constant stimulus. Stimulate me please. I did however manage to purchase my airfare for next months vacation. I leave the morning of the 13th and come home around noon on the 19th. My original vacation time was planned for the 10th-19th, but I want to go home, see my mom and dad and my baby neice Mackenna. I still can't believe my little brother has a baby. She's so beautiful. Her eyes are so blue!!! And her hair is the color of carmel. She's the best baby in the world, all smiles and giggles and so strong willed. It's been three months since I've last seen her so I need to go and play with her some before taking off. I still can't believe that my brother is a daddie. MY LITTLE BROTHER WHO IS ABOUT TO BE 24!!! Oh my fucking... 24! his birthday is on the 8th of September so I better remember to bring him something damn!

Today was one of the few days that I have a good portion of the day off with no one around to distract me. I cleaned the kitchen which took me 3 hours! 4 loads of dishes later, swept and mopped the floors, cleaned off all the counters, put away the dishes, made dinner (turkey burgers with rosemary and garlic pepper, french fries and for dessert a cinnamon swirled cake), but before I did any of that I went grocery shopping. I bought $105.00 worth of groceries thinking to myself how awesome I was for not grabbing junk food and for buying enough groceries to last the rest of the month, because I fucking hate grocery shopping, and then when I got outside I realized I was fucking stupid. I have to carry all that shit back to my house!!! How was I going to do it?! Sure I only live two blocks away but they are big city blocks, and well I had about 15 bags of groceries and a huge thing of toilet paper to carry too! somehow I managed to load all that shit on my arms and I slowly started to walk home. I must have looked like a freak, a complete freak! It took me almost twenty minutes to walk what usually takes me five minutes. It was so heavy, I couldn't feel my arms or hands or fingers anymore. The bags were cutting into my arms and wrists and hands. My knees were banging into cans and I was afraid all the bread I bought was going to get smooshed. Somehow I made it home, and up the three flights of stairs only to find myself soaking wet with sweat I had to rip off my clothes as soon as I was in the door. I didn't even care that I was walking around nearly naked with the windows wide open I was so hot and weak I thought I was going to pass out, but hey I don't have to go to the store for another three weeks!

I'm going to start getting ready for ID in a bit, I have to check on the cake and make my roommates dinner when they get in though first.

:) sometimes I think I'd be a good mom/wife/lady.