has it almost been a year already?
There is so much going on in my head right now it's hard to think. Barbeque's and birthdays and moving and work and friends and/or lack there of...
On top of everything I've been overthinking things and being way to sensative about other things and I guess I'm stressed out a little bit. I'm not in any sort of financial crisis or anything, but I am a bit strapped because of the move. $1666 just to move into the other place plus $220 for the 12 days rent prorated for this place = $1886 and that doesn't include the $50 for my cell phone or the $64 for car insurance, plus gas or the $215 for parking tickets I've managed to rack up in the last 2 weeks because my head wasn't in any place to think of things like moving my car not to mention a girls gotta EAT! I haven't even mentioned the electricity & phone bill...
Wow. So I hope I'll be able to scrape by at least until the 15th of June when I won't be paying deposits and rent at two places and can catch up with everything. I know moving isn't cheap, and hopefully our old landlord will give Leslie and I our halves of the deposit sooner rather than later so I'm not playing the catch up game durring the month of June.
We get our keys to the place on the evening of the 31st. We all took the 1st off so we can move. Hopefully we'll have all of our small boxes and crap in that first evening and just have the big stuff to move on the first. I really just want this move to be done and over with. I no longer have that excited energy about it. It's really sunk in that we got the place and that we are moving in 11 days. So I'm happy that we're moving to a bigger, better place with more amenities but I'm not really all that excited about the actual move.
Besides moving shit which I'm sure everyone's tired of hearing about, I have so much more just bouncing around inside of my head it's crazy. I just had $50 taken from my checking account to pay for my monthly gym fees and this pay period I've hardly gone. So tonight I'm going. I'm going to spend hours there until I can't move anymore. I want to be skinny again and that's that. It's totaly sad that I've given into the whole diet soda/diet rockstar thing but really think about how many calories you ingest from one friggin soda! Besides now there are all the diet soda's made with Splenda and I like Splenda. And the diet wild cherry pepsi doesn't even taste like a diet drink. Not that I drink that much soda or anything. Once I'm out of my financial crisis I'm going to start drinking the Borba water, and damnit! I better see some results. I better feel hydrated. I better notice something different or I'll be pissed! Especially for the price of that shit. I hate the way I look these days I'm desperate to try anything. Maybe if I was getting laid I wouldn't give a damn???
On top of all that I feel like my ties with my roommates are fraying at both ends. They are my best friends and yet lately there has been more tention than there needs to be. I guess everyone's just a little stressed. I've been trying to hang out with friends outside of the living situation to give everyone a little bit of space, except I don't have that many friends that I'm that close with anymore. This needs to change. I need to start doing things with my old friends more.
I need to take more pictures... Maybe that's what I'll do tonight. I have plans of buying a couple bottles of wine, and having a sexy little dance party for 1 or 2 people at my house. Playing on the turntables, watching movies... whatever.
I'm tired. I need to jump in the shower and go to the gym.
posted by Amber at 7:35 PM
2 Comments:
moving is stressful. not only just the money part, but moving your stuff can be disorienting. it's funny how you get used to certain routines, certain physical spaces, certain noises, and changing all that wakes up your senses, which can be exhilarating but can also be nerve wracking. throw in a roommate or two and you'll be navigating some choppy emotional waters in the next month or two.
you know, drinking a soda is like eating a slice of liquid cake. and sugar is treacherous, it was harder for me to give up than caffeine, but once i did found that these emotional mood swings i used to have disappeared. i was on a cycle of eating sugar, having a lot of energy for three or four hours, crashing and feeling really bummed out, then eating some more sugar. soda = bad.
Mr. Brown,
I know how shitty I'm begining to feel because of this move. I started off all sorts of excited but now I just can't wait for it to be over.
I don't drink that much soda and I don't eat that much sugar as in soda, candy, pastry's although I'm sure I get enough sugar from breads and pastas and things like that. I don't get mood swings that go up and down up and down fast and slow. I'm generally always the same. Mostly because I think being overly happy or overly sad, angry, depressed whatever is just stupid. I have control issues which includes conroling the way I feel, think, & act. But hey, at least I recognize this.
Somedays more shit happens than others.
You're the second person I've heard from about sugar altering your mood. I've never experienced this. hmm... I guess I just don't believe in food altering a persons emotions. I've always thought and believed that I have the brain power to control what I want to do and how I should act and feel, and so far that's how things have been.
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