starving. I think I'm going to die!

I forgot to bring food to eat for lunch today. Of course after whining about being fat yesterday I shouldn't be complaining today about starving. But I'm not that kind of girl. I would never starve myself, ever! I love food, and everything that goes with it from preparing it to tasting it to that satisfied feeling when I've eaten a good meal. So of course some wierd twist of fate would bring me here to this. I know myself, I know what I'm capable of doing and dieting is just not one of them. I might be able to cut back a little and try to eat healthier but I wouldn't put money on myself to follow through for more than maybe a few days, if that. I'm more of an excercise abuser. I'll eat like crazy and rely upon my good metabolism and tons of excercise to lose weight. As it is, most people that consume the amount of food I do would be the size of a small hippo. I got lucky. I got good genes. But since starting this job in January, where all I do is sit on my ass, I have put on a little bit of weight and most definitely have not been excercising. No wonder I'm always tired! My ass is getting huge. But whatever no food today. Just some Trident gum to tide me over. Then it's off to the gym. let's just hope I don't pass out from low blood sugar.

5' 10" + 160lbs. = fattie! and nobody likes a fattie.

So my goal for the next month is to be 150lbs. I'd love to be 145lbs. again, but we'll see. I made some creme brulle last night and it's in the fridgerator just waiting for me!