I have a problem.

I am a fucking mess.

I can't control the spending. I spent too much money this weekend and now I'm going to have to wait until Friday to buy volume 3 of the Hunger Teen Aqua Force instead of tomorrow. I SUCK. Plus seriously I should be saving my money for christmas and shit. But I just can't. Plus I just completely forgot to do my laundry yesterday and the only chance I'll have again to do it isn't until Friday.

Why am I so irresponsible?!

I could have a nice savings going on right now. I could have some bills paid off now. I could have a lot of things, except for that impulse inside of me that makes me do bad things and spend all my money.

Besides being cranky about all that I didn't get very good sleep last night. I went to bed around 1 woke up at 7, but my sleep was so restless inbetween. I woke up to this tingling feeling on my arm. Then it itched. I thought it was too cold for mosquitos and how the hell did it find it's way into my room? Maybe it was a spider? But I've never seen a spider in my house before? Anyhow was wearing these softening gloves so I couldn't scratch it well enough for me to be satisfied so I had to actually wake up to take off the gloves to scratch my arm then put them back on and try to get comfortable but I kept feeling that fucking mosquito or whatever it was land on me. ON MY EYE! Needless to say I freaked out and couldn't stop itching everywhere after that...

I am so tired! I've only been at work for an hour and have no idea how I'm going to make it through the day. only 12 more hours to go.